Sunday, July 22, 2012

Mr Boggybound

Well I am sitting in my room waiting for Thomas and Colter to get home. Once they get here we will pack up Colters Toyota and head down to Orem. Tom and I will be boarding a plane leaving a1 11:59 pm tonight and 9 hours later will be meeting the lovely Sarah Grether at the airport. I literally cannot tell you how excited I am. There are so many people who have changed my life that I have not seen for almost a full year, some of the best friends I have ever or will ever have. I am going to the place that showed me where I wanted my life to go and who I wanted to work towards becoming. The gifts that I have received from Camp Boggy Creek are worth more than any amount of money I will earn in my entire life. So much joy in my heart.

Well I am anxiously awaiting news from Utah State. I have applied for college and I will tell you I am so nervous. I am nervous I will not get in, I am nervous about being in school again. If you pray I would humbly ask that you pray for me to get in. I feel like I am so ready to finally truly attend college. I just hope I am given the chance.

Well some sad news Mr. Colter is gonna be moving out of our room and heading back to Arizona. I am sure that this is a great change for him but it will be sad for us to lose such a great member of our "treehouse", family. Also I am gonna have a new room mate and it is hard to replace someone who is so laid back about your crazy work schedule and behaviors.

Today I saw a potato bug walking as I was heading in my house, and I thought to myself "people call these rolly pollies, what an undignified name". Then I thought to myself, "You just called it a potato bug you jackass". A very interesting and drama filled life I live.

Well to friends family loved ones, Thank YOU!!!

P.S. I truly hope their is a god who can give the families of the Colorado shooting some peace. I cannot imagine the pain.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

That will do pig, that will do.

It has been such a good year. In no way has this year been easy but I have met so many good people. I have learned so much, about myself, about what is important and about the world. I have grown so much I cannot even believe it. I have come so far and I am only excited about what is to come. I have fallen in love with life. I have so many people to thank for this. So many kind words, smiles, hugs and anything I needed in between. It just seems to get better. I am truly fortunate. Thanks ere body. Happy Tuesday.

"be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle".

Sunday, July 15, 2012

These are a few of my favorite things!!!

Today I think I will just list some of my favorite things. Some are new additions some are old.

Music: The Hold Steady
Book: The Book of Joe
TV: Deadwood/ Six Feet Under
Shoe: Flippy Floppies
Food: Indian
Beer: Wasatch Brewery Summer Twilight Kolsch Style Ale
I am looking forward to: Snowboarding
Hat: My red Beanie
Coffee: Rio Grande Roasters Snickerdoodle, "your favorite grandma's cookie in a cup!
Fruit: Grapefruit
Condiment: Addams Peanut Butter
Place I have been thinking of lately: Jackson Hole
What I want to start attempting to do: Rock Climbing
Clothing: Jeanz

Well maybe I will think of some more things later, maybe not. Either way I am happy with this list!

P.S. I am gonna be home in about 7 days. My southwest home that is.

P.P.S. I think Bruce Springsteen is a pretty good guy.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

I have always depended on the kindness of strangers.

So I finished an amazing book. It is called the Tao of Pooh. I would recommend this book to anyone. I enjoyed this book from start to finnish. I then started reading the Tao of Willie, about Willie Nelson. It seems that one of the most important messages from these books and from so many other sources is that a path to true happiness is by living honestly to yourself. Its amazing to me how hard this is though. It is so easy for me to allow what I think will please others affect my choices. Anything from what to wear to what I am doing for fun. I have decided that I am going to try my very hardest to make decisions based on what I want, not what I think I should do to please others. For people that this is easy, I not only respect them, I am green with jealous rage. Im starting with simple baby steps such as only reading books I want to, trying to be open about my feelings towards religion instead of just staying quiet. When I am not honest about my wants, needs and desires it is unfair to people in my life. I feel like I should apologize for not being honest about my wishes for so long. I know this is going to be a lifelong journey, I also am kind of annoyed that it has taken me to 23 to try to live for myself. I guess its better than 32 or 64 or 128 years old. Better late than ever eh? Well anyways perhaps later on I will update on how the new life lessons are going, perhaps not it just depends on wether I want to or not! Have a splendid day.

P.S. I think everyone should watch Deadwood. If you are ever sad think of all the amazing music you have not heard and books you have not read, its kind of amazing how much there is we have not yet had the pleasure to take in. I think everyone should get at least one tattoo, that way you can really decide if you would regret it. I am gonna try to write some songs that are only what I want to write and then I am gonna try to record them and I am gonna let people hear them for once, no matter what they sound like.

As I was leaving Idaho the other day I did not know how to get on the freeway. This family where all members had sleeve less shirts, mullets, all different kinds of cigarettes and a bumper sticker that said "if you are gonna tailgate me at least pull my hair", with the picture of a sexy lady next to it, showed me true genuine kindness. They went out of their way to allow me to follow them so that I would make it to the freeway without getting lost. I appreciated it so much. So I am sending out thankful brainwaves out to the universe hoping that they get them and have some good luck come their way. It was a great day to be an American.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Can you hear them?

Ahhh the 10th of July. A wonderful day indeed. Thomas and I will be heading to Florida in less than 2 weeks and I could not be more excited. Tomorrow is my day off and I am trying to think of what to do with my full night of freedom. Perhaps I will go back packing. Perhaps. I know I need to go to the library and get a new book. The one I am reading I just cannot get into. I think life is too short to read books you don't enjoy.

As of late I have had many different things on my mind. I have thought of unkind, mean spirited, rude, shallow, selfish and all things of the like I have done in my life. I wonder if we can make up for these things somehow. If I was unkind to someone and I never will see them again, can my kind acts to others make up for it? I hope that if people remember anything about me it is that I was kind to them. If people think of me and think of negative things I have done to them then I have failed.

Utah is very beautiful. If you did not know you should visit. Also it seems to be filled with interesting people.

Well there are a few things I want to get. I think I am going to get a new tattoo soon. I would like to get an amp so I can play my electric guitar with my pedal again. I would like to get some new pedals, they are a blast. I think I am gonna be growing my hair out a real long time.

Well if you have read this blog than I think you are pretty neat. I appreciate you taking a minute to listen to my thoughts and feelings. Its kind of the virtual version of being a great listener.

Oh for a tattoo I thought of the silhouette of a pirate ship with the words "refuse to sink". I have seen a few different ideas and I really like it. Also I would love to get a old Wagon Wheel somewhere. I think I also will get a little Yoda somewhere on my person. Yeah those are some Ideas.


Wednesday, July 4, 2012

July the 4th

Alright so I want to become a better writer. I have heard that to do something well you have to do it thousands of time terribly. So this is my terrible release. It seems that this blog is the only way I can write so for the wonderful people who read this, now you know my real intentions. I am watching Kevin Smith : To fat to fly. Mr Smith seems to have a way of making me feel less lonely and cheering me up. Also as of late I have read some David Sedaris and I everyone would be really smart to read as many of his books as possible. Well a boring morning. I don't really have anything new to say other than I might start writing fun little short stories or maybe more poems or perhaps who knows just interesting things.

Monday, July 2, 2012

I tried a poem this morning.

As I went down to the river
I decided not to pray,
Instead I sat on the beach
and watched the children play.

Though no god heard my voice
He could not have yelled, 
If he could see their smile
He'd concur with my choice.

In that moment I knew
that I had to go back,
to sit behind bars
For the men that I slew.

As I walk through the gate
I think what I've done,
"Why am I different?"
Children are born without hate.

As the shock runs through me
my blood boils in the chair
On this wooden throne 
My soul will be freed.